Wednesday, May 16, 2007

i'm so scared...
the results maybe out anyday now and i have managed to forget how bad it really was.
i am scared that i might get used to failure....maybe when i see my name on none of the college rolls,i will just feel bad and shed a tear.....like i always do....
and i am scared that i will get used to a life like that,scared that i will just stand and watch while the entire world zooms past.
i am scared of stagnation...of thoughts,of words,of ambitions.
i am scared of jadedness...of life.
sometimes,i wish all this would end.....and drown into a red pool of oblivion.
just like that.

17 comments:

Indranil said...

hey! Don't you dare worry. The World will not zoom past you. And you are not meant for stagnation. Just steady your heart for these few days. It's ok to get nervous before results. And Best of luck.

Lucid Darkness said...

Join the club!

I'll call you when I find a decent rock to crawl under, :p

weevil girl said...

BEADYSEAISSCARED?

ALL
FEARS
SHALL
DROWN
IN
THE
BEADYSEA
AND
EMERGE
AS A
WAVE
THAT
GOES
HIGHHIGHHIGH OVER THE CLOUDS AND SWALLOWS THE MOON AND THEN LAND ON MARS AND DISCOVER THE ORIGIN OF MARSMEN AND THEIR PET HEDGEHOGS.

what am i talking? yes results.
this is what they do to you.


and all the best.thou shalt rock.

sublimely ordinary. said...

okay nice post. and i understand what you mean but i cannot agree.my dept will love to have you.:).so just relax.thou shalt pass and this will too.

little boxes said...

keep ur prayers goin strong
i need them

oliver said...

i used to be too, you know? life is too strong to be put down by these things.

and then, you'll probably score well anyway and get into a fabulous place :)

faithless the wonder boy said...

well look on the bright side...atleast im in a worse position than you.

Achluophobia said...

Look at it this way, failure leads to some more happiness. Coz success is on the way. You will do well.

sujaan said...

two nice quotes seem very apt here:

"We shall cross the bridge when it comes"

"This too shall pass"

Neel said...

You did your best. Don't you worry. Think positive. It helps.

Angika said...

We've all been there done that and we'll all be there again. Its a continuous process of being scared and being sure :) Good luck. The blog is very nice. You're very creative :) I'll keep visiting, if you don't mind. :)

little boxes said...

@oliver:well...not evry1s as good as u,u kno
@faithless:u have no idea the thickness of the soup i am in
@achluophobia:thanks :)
@sujaan:hmm quotes n all...good going.
@neel:ya...keep those prayers going stong...
@angika:ofcourse i dont mind...duh!!!
@ALL:thanks for those words of comfort!!!
:)

~Nayan~ said...

best of luck

onnesha said...

e baba rhea????
e baba..ki hobe tor?
jodi kono college e na hoy?
shudder shudder.
e baba
sobai ki bolbe.
e ma...!!!
oooooff..
grow up kid!you will zoom past everyone for all i know..
bhabishna*wink*

oliver said...

whatgood, eh. i'm not at a fabulous place. my college is a gowal. that was the point of the comment really. life goes on nevertheless :)

little boxes said...

gowal??
u were in which college jeno...?

Shreya Sarkar said...

yes....very nicely written...but no worries my dear,cuz v 2 are surely going to hell after da rslts cum out....n then v can have cheesecake there!!what say..?