Friday, July 27, 2007

two weeks

two weeks in college!
i would be lying if i said i dont like it...what the hell,i seem to be loving it!
the majestic red brick building casts a spell on me each morning....the lush green lawn with the plants etching out the college emblem....the audi...the orientations...this is what i always wanted to do,always wanted to live through.
we have these huge railing-less french windows with wide seating spaces....this is where i am always found...barefoot,leaning down from the third storey,watching girls walk in and walk out...with their varied expressions,vivid bitchings and eyes which dream on...
but in the midst of it all,i miss home...the moment i find myself enjoying college,i pine to have shreya with me...my best friend with whom i have shared the smallest of joys and biggest of fears...the moment i dig into the bhel puri outside college,i miss suryaa who couldnt let keep her hands off my bhel puri back home,miss anindita when i smile to myself at some perverted hidden meaning i find out of prosaic stuff,which no one else gets...miss the corridor which takes you the library where this bunch of girls laughed away their times unaware of the years of solitude which were to follow...
but yes,i am not friend less here...made some of the cutest ones...virge,adreeka,zoya,nair,tara,sara....
they are the reasons why i dont cry for home nowadays...the tears dont come,but the heart aches and pines and the mind wanders off to the bustling gariahat more teeming with people,or the dingy JU corridors where my best friend is busy chatting up with her new friends...or the white house in Beniapukur lane where two souls dreamt their dreams together...
i love college,i love the siri fort audi,love the TGIF food,love the drive to Noida...but all that is reduced to zilch next to my love for the place i call home,the place where i loved and i hated,i learnt and i faltered,i met and i departed, and did so much more...

23 comments:

Clouds said...

I have never been away from the place I call home...I have always lingered in this protected cocoon of Calcutta..So,I still dunno how it feels to be away..how it feels to chase your dreams,while away from the things you love..from the place you love and hate so much..

Most beautifully expressed,sis...!

Sups said...

well baby, i left home at the same age a you did - just entering the threshold of adulthood.

When i came to cal at the age of 11 after 3 years in bombay, i hated it, and when i was leaving at 18 i cried all nite.5 years in pune and that also became my home.a year in bombay n tht was also my home. n now im i finally settled in delhi - this is also my home.i'm lucky that i have so many homes.You now have two homes - your room in delhi n ur home in kolkata.take delhi to be ur home.ul certainly miss cal, no doubt but ul also learn to love delhi.besides ul meet so many ppl from so many different places n go to place whr u wud never have otherwise gone.make the most of it

bestaluck wih ur college life...treasure n enjoy these days to the fullest.they give u a lifetme of wonderful memories.the travellin to n fro is also gr8, esp whn there are ten of u n only 3 seats n u end up spendin a 40 hour journey sitting near the toilets :P
sounds yuck but at tht time oh it was loads of fun...n i rem the time whn i came hoem for my fiurst chutti,the shouts whn we saw the first bengali billboard advertising 'bapir genji' n the tear we cudnt stop whn we saw the howrah bridge n saw the huge welcomin committee on teh station for all of us.

yup this is long n ignore the gyaan part :)

Shreya said...

what can I say but I really miss you....and its good to know how well you are settling in..miss you loads.
*love and hugs*

Lucid Darkness said...

I am glad that you've kept an open mind.

It'll keep getting better, I hope.


*Smiles*

sap said...

i can empathize. lived in cal for first 18 years of my life. then moved on.
the realisation that you ll never return to the same home you left is one that ll dawn a couple of years down. but everything is a part of life. and blessed you that you can feel sad about the home you left!

and i m blogrolling you! is it fine with you?

Anindita said...

Miss you too....but its great to hear you are enjoying your new life.............every time you feel lonely or sad just close your eyes and you will see our smiling faces.....you'll hear the tinkling of our laughter...........and you will feel us nearer than you expected......enjoy my sweet friend!

Astraeus said...

great to know u are loving ur new college...

P.s: Thank god u restarted blogging
:)

sublimely ordinary. said...

hey. i had been waiting for ur new post.good 2 hav u back.
u know...sometimes i think this longing,this pain is good.it somehow assures me of my capability to love.sounds strange?
btw i miss ur comments on my blog.

phoenix said...

hey enjoy it while it lasts..trust me 2nd yr wont see you feel the same thing...:P

weevil girl said...

:]

can say much here, can i?
ive never had a place to call home actually. moved to much me has.
staying put sometimes makes it feel so unnatural.
so i possibly wont understand.
but yes i agree with LD.
AND beautifully expressed, yeah.

little boxes said...

thanks so much for ur comment...
who exactly is sap?

Neel said...

good to see you settling down. Have fun!

Opaline said...

Duude, I wish I was in DU. Inshallah, next year I'll be in JNU.

disillusioned darkling said...

soooo u r back on the blog circuit :)))

Princess Banter said...

Live on and live on! College was the best 4 years of my life... and now, I shall be living vicariously through you :) I would give anything to wreak havoc again just like what I did in college :) Enjoy it, pet, while it still lasts :)

Dream Baron said...

Hi Bedatri!!!
Right now i will living 6 hrs from Delhi for the next 4 years!!!
I am here at Pilani!!! How's Life?

Pujarini said...

I would like you to know that, even though i didn't know you very well (or for very long) it would've been an honor studying with you at JUDE. You know how much i wanted you here. And i know how much YOU wanted to be here. And it's not just Shreya who misses having you walk the dingy JU corridors with her.
And it isn't just you who pines for home.
Calcutta pines for you too.

Having said that, Delhi is a beautiful city as well... and i'm happy you are exploring it.. I know you will never call it home.. but you can atleast remember it for the memories you build there over the next few years...
Till you return, have fun.. laugh and shine on..

Love.

Pravin said...

Ah, welcome back ;)

It's hard leaving home, but then living by yourself (and your friends) is a lot of fun. Looking back, you'll love these days.

Achluophobia said...

hey ur post reminds me of my predicament. i am in goddamn bhopal with no goddamn net!! ur definitely better off.

Fishy! said...

Virge? Is she from Loreto, Calcutta?
Good to hear you're settling in. And it's only natural to miss all that you've left behind. But you know what the beauty of it is? That you get to come back and revisit every once in a while...

ruby tuesday said...

no more blogging?

little boxes said...

will do...the moment i find time..

onnesha said...

hmmm.good to see you back on the groove.post more.