Monday, March 14, 2011

all i could hear were your thin fingers strumming at your guitar when i knew of your death. the same song you sang for us three years back.
no, i could not tell blue skies from pain then and still cant.
when the world danced infront of my eyes to a mad drunken frenzy, all i could see was that long corridor of red and you sitting at the end of it. and that face that passed a smile at times, the voice that spoke a few times in class.
i knew of your pain that afternoon we sat cutting marigold petals from their stalks, even when you sat in the front lawns staring at the sun for hours and even when they told me that you decided to end it all with that last step.
i knew and did nothing. we werent friends, and i dont know if i could help if i tried. it's just this silence over these questions that disturbs. questions thought too late, not asked at all.
rest in peace.
i hope you find that happiness you forever wished for, looked for.

7 comments:

karthik purushothaman said...

I wish her the same.

wild iris said...

Bedu :(
I couldn't have put it better. I think she's happy now. I hope she is.

Magically Bored said...

Who is this for? It's beautifully written.

little boxes said...

@magically bored:
i lost a college classmate a few eeks back.

Magically Bored said...
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Magically Bored said...

Oh no. I am so sorry. :(

Neel said...

reading your blog after a while. missed out a lot.