Thursday, November 15, 2007

fevered ramblings

there i was.writhing in pain in someone else's bed-looking up at the ceiling of someone else's house.the fever split my head and i cried-hoping someone would listen.anyone.
hoping someone would come and put that palm on my forehead,say something to ease the pain.the tears made it even more unbearable,i couldn't get the sleep i so needed.
i called him up.once,twice,thrice.this time he shouted.there's only so much a man can take.
i couldn't go on like that...in an alien land,with a throbbing head,with a burning body.
i remembered what she had written in my diary:
"i'm sure we will always stay this way.even though you're such a chatterbox,you say it best when you nothing at all."...and here i was-crying in pain,howling for some human form by my side-tired of relating my pain to the walls.couldn't she hear me this time?what happened to the promises?forgotten with the boxes of shared tiffin?
out of sight,out of mind?well,maybe.maybe distance IS too strong an opponent for love....
it's amazing how philosophical you can get with a 100+ temperature.of the many things that you realise,the foremost is the fact that nothing stays-love,friendship,promises...nothing.
you begin to find the truth in the age old statement of man being an island.waves come,waves go...the water flows across leaving behind faint trails which get hidden under the sands of time.the waves come again,drench the island with life...and leave.this goes on till there is no island anymore.just one whole expanse of sea-no land in sight,no life around-just an endless and eternal ring of silence....
"...Then the busy years went rushing by us-
we lost our starry notions on the way.
if by chance i'd see you in the tavern,
we'd smile at one another and we'd say,
those were the days,my friend-
we thought they'd never end..."
~Bobby Vinton

11 comments:

Neel said...

when i find myself in time sof trouble mother mary come sto me, speaking words of wisdom...Let It Be!
and in my hours of darkness she's standing right in front of me, speaking words of wisdom...Let It Be!

^*^Clouds^*^ said...

Awww..take care of yourself!

*hugs*

Lucid Darkness said...

The fever does inspire philosophy.
Life doesn't last forever, does it? It's only logical then that all that you come across in life doesn't either.

Get well soon.

inihos said...

i have become quite an expert in dealing with 100+ fevers in an alien city

onnesha said...

ekhon bhalo achhish?
this time around couldnt meet up with you.next kobe ashchhish?

little boxes said...

@inihos:yeah...life teaches you weird things
@onnesha:december

Dream Baron said...

Ah, yes 100+ fevers, even at home i used to take care of myself when sick and so do i now but the security of parents aint there, so what we are here on our own accord to create our destiny and not accept it...let that motivation to succeed lead u thru trecherous paths...
And what else the tavern has been shut down...

Achluophobia said...

I can really feel what u rote here. Maybe coz i can relate to it. Great writing as always.

Moo-lah Buzinezzz! said...

eeeks!yeh yeh...fever's bad...!! Take care!!

phoenix said...

get well soon...

Amber said...

"maybe distance IS too strong an opponent for love...."

your fever certainly inspired some profound thoughts..change, they is the only constant..for the better or worse..but nothing lasts..