Wednesday, April 2, 2008

leaving...

I've never felt this scared of leaving before.it's not really fright,but this sense of lingering discomfort.maybe because i have exams to take once I'm back there,but that's not the whole of it...there's more to it.and the worst part is that i can't fathom what it really is.
i am scared of planes because they crash.it would be unpleasant to die knowing that someone you really like,hates you.i can't die with so many questions left unanswered.
questions populate my head and they,somehow,lose their way in search of answers...into the nothingness the plane floats in.
i don't want to leave...not this time.

13 comments:

Noisy Autist said...

they say that you can find solace in... as the song goes... "it's easier to leave than to be left behind"...

Pongy Papaya said...

i love you....

Darkling said...

well sometimes i feel like leaving everything behind and wish like hell everythng starts afreshh cuz theres too many questions that starts swimming inside my head and i feel like screamming...!!

little boxes said...

@noisy autist:yup that saves a lot of tears...n its a lot more comfortable
@pongy:love you too
@darkling:yeah,isnt it bugging?so much so that they dont go away even when you go away

:: Clouds :: said...

hugss.take care.love you lots.:)

Bubbles of FireWhiskey said...

there are days when i wish certain things and people too, did not mean to me as much as they do so it wouldnt be difficult to just cut and run. but then i start thinking that i wouldnt be here if it wasnt for them. i just went back home because i was feeling intensely homesick and yet i ound myself odly reluctant to meet my family...

Sam said...

but then the show must go on!!

The Mad Girl said...

There are times when I want my plane to crash...and I want to rise from the ashes. A new me.
Hope all's well with you. Take care dear.

Macadamia The Nut said...

Every time I fly, I put on my best, lingerie :D :D

I think to myself "I don't want people to see me wearing outrageous crap after I'm dead!"

;) Cheer up babe! It's going to be A-ok!

Antigone said...

dnt worry about heights...u'll be on terra firma soon. and you only leave to return...:)
take good care...

weevil girl said...

-sigh-
take care

onnesha said...

being bothered by a nagging thought is very very unsettling.more so,when you dont know what exactly is bothering you.and yes,being hated by someone you like can make one feel very depraved.
take care:)

speedpost said...

You are still alive I'm guessing, considering you commented on Priyanka's blog... anyhow dont worry I am that paranoid about planes too.. I HAVE to take anti-vomiting medication before I board a plane.